Tonight couldn't end any other way... My senses are completely overwhelmed: the strong rush, the intense ashtray smell radiating from my skin, and the ashes tracing the reflection of what's inside me. Here, words are no longer necessary; the only thing I need is to fuck my pussy right along with my lungs, surrendered like the dirty Marlboro red slut that I am. My pussy also wanted to feel the ash, but the fresh, hot ash from the three cigarettes I'm smoking at the same time, consuming myself until my very last breath.

My body demands more marks, more evidence of what consumes me. This is a direct descent to the bottom: tracing the damage with my own stained hands, letting the ash cling to my skin, and completely surrendering to the heavy weight of the tar. There is no self-control when the vice possesses you inside and out.

There is no word like "no" when the addiction is in charge. I am It’s obedient slut, surrendered to every deep drag and the stifling density of my Marlboro Reds. But the obsession demands more: every ash that falls is an order I obey without hesitation, tasting its bitter flavor, swallowing it all the way down, and feeling how it stains me from within, how it slowly burns me. I seek to bend myself further, to get lost in this spiral of smoke and ruin where the vice holds all the control and I am just its vessel, its slave willing to consume herself entirely

Nackt, weil ich die Hitze, die gleich über meine Haut spülen wird, bereits in- und auswendig kenne. Lass uns über die Dringlichkeit dieses scharfen Schlags auf die Schläfen und die nicht verhandelbare Besessenheit von dem Kick sprechen. Ich hasse es, wenn der Körper taub wird und der Tabak seine Schärfe verliert; mein Motor ist dieser ruckartige Treffer, der dir den Atem raubt und deine Sicht verschwimmen lässt, und ich weiß, dass deiner das auch tut. In dieser Session gibt es keine Techniken, nur ein Gespräch, ein paar Tipps, um mit einer einzigen Zigarette einen starken und schnellen Kick zu spüren. Schau mich an und folge meinem Tempo. Beobachte, wie mein nackter Körper auf den Wasserfall aus Rauch reagiert, zu dem meine Lungen werden, mich bis an meine Grenzen treibt, mir den Atem raubt und mich völlig in Trance versetzt. Folge meinem Tempo bei diesem Powersmoking, bis du die allerletzte Spur von Lust aus einer einzigen Zigarette herausquetschst.

Story time on how my own body is making me pay the price... I've been struggling for weeks with a cough that burns inside and leaves every rib aching with every breath. Anyone in their right mind would stop, but logic doesn't work with me. The more it punishes me, the more I need it. A sick, dark, and obsessive love that I will never want to cure myself of, no matter how much it costs me my breath.

Meine Muschi war so nass und cremig ?. Wenn ich mit Husten und Rauch gesättigt bin, liegt es wahrscheinlich daran, dass ich kurz davor bin zu kommen

The air starts to run out from the very first second as my body jumping in place with both cigarettes lit at once, pushing my lungs to surrender prematurely under a fatigue that devours me from within. My chest rises and falls desperately, searching for the oxygen I refuse to let in, and as soon as those two are burned out, the obsession doesn't stop: I immediately light a third to power-smoke while I try in vain to catch my breath. It's a blind voracity, a beautiful and trap where the smoke enters thick, burns me from the inside, and takes over every corner without giving me a break, stretching my own exhaustion to the absolute limit and letting the ember advance until it consumes the last of me.