Loop 01: Wanting Is Not Having

31 Days of Denial — The Locktober Training Programme

A slow, repetitive loop exploring the space between wanting something and choosing how to respond.

Through calm guidance and a continuous ambient soundscape, this recording invites you to notice urges, recognise familiar bargaining and practise pausing before acting. There is no need to f a feeling away or manufacture a particular response. The practice is to observe what is present and return thoughtfully to your chosen commitment.

Designed for Days 2 and 6, and suitable for both Device and Mindset participants. Follow the accompanying guidebook lesson and written exercises for the complete daily practice.

Approximately 8–12 minutes per cycle. Created for seamless repetition, without a formal induction or awakening. Listen for the scheduled duration, then allow yourself time to return your attention fully to your surroundings.

31 Days of Denial — Day 1: The Commitment

Hello, you... this is where we begin.

The first guided recording invites you to pause, consider why you are participating, and make a deliberate commitment to the month ahead. Give yourself time to listen and approach that decision with honesty and intention.

To follow the full programme, you will need to purchase the accompanying guidebook separately. It contains the daily schedule, written exercises, reflections, and reviews that work alongside these recordings. Begin with the introduction and complete the Day 1 material as directed.

This programme is paced across 31 days. Follow the guidebook’s schedule rather than moving ahead through every recording available. Further recordings will be added here as the programme progresses.

You can participate with a device or through mindset alone.

Find a quiet place where you can listen safely and without interruption. For adults aged 18 and over. Do not listen while driving or doing anything that requires your full attention. You may pause or stop at any time.

Obedience. Chastity. Devotion... one day at a time.

A visual work from the **Broadcast 0** series.

**Negative Space** is a slow, monochromatic performance film exploring contrast, reflection, and transformation through image rather than narrative.

Set within a bath of white liquid that gradually darkens over time, the piece unfolds through fragments of movement, shifting textures, and carefully composed stillness. The body appears only in glimpses, allowing absence and atmosphere to become as important as what is visible.

Rather than telling a story, **Negative Space** invites quiet observation. Light and shadow, black and white, stillness and motion gradually reshape the frame, creating an experience that evolves through duration rather than dramatic change.

Inspired by minimalist cinema, performance art, and conceptual photography, the film encourages the viewer to slow down and notice subtle visual relationships that might otherwise pass unnoticed.

There is no beginning to explain.

No ending to resolve.

Only an image that continues to change as long as you remain with it.

The first transmission in the **Broadcast 0** series.

**Before Thought** is a slow, immersive audio work exploring attention, silence, and the moments that exist before we instinctively interpret what we're experiencing.

Built from spacious narration, extended pauses, and carefully placed observations, the recording encourages a slower way of listening—one where ordinary sensations, sounds, and thoughts are given room to unfold naturally.

Rather than following a traditional narrative, *Before Thought* moves through questions, recurring ideas, and moments of stillness, inviting each listener to discover their own experience within the space the recording creates.

Drawing inspiration from conceptual art, phenomenology, and contemplative practice, this piece is less concerned with reaching a destination than with exploring what happens when we remain present a little longer than usual.

There is no right way to listen.

No outcome to achieve.

Simply press play, settle into the moment, and allow the recording to unfold at its own pace.

The third transmission in the Broadcast 0 series.

**Axis** is a slow, immersive audio work exploring stillness, orientation, and the subtle relationships between the body, the surrounding environment, and the passage of time.

Built from spacious narration, measured repetition, and extended periods of silence, the recording gradually draws attention toward simple points of reference: the rhythm of breathing, the feeling of contact with the surface beneath you, the warmth of the body, and the quiet presence of the room itself.

As the recording unfolds, familiar sensations begin to organise into a calm, steady awareness. Nothing new is introduced. Instead, the ordinary is given space to reveal itself through patience and duration.

Inspired by conceptual art, phenomenology, and contemplative practice, **Axis** is less about arriving somewhere than discovering what remains when there is nowhere else to be.

The recording concludes without dramatic resolution, allowing silence to become part of the experience and inviting the listener to carry that stillness beyond the final spoken words.

There is no destination.

Only a place to remain.

The first transmission in the **Broadcast 0** series.

**Before Thought** is a slow, immersive audio work exploring attention, silence, and the moments that exist before we instinctively interpret what we're experiencing.

Built from spacious narration, extended pauses, and carefully placed observations, the recording encourages a slower way of listening—one where ordinary sensations, sounds, and thoughts are given room to unfold naturally.

Rather than following a traditional narrative, *Before Thought* moves through questions, recurring ideas, and moments of stillness, inviting each listener to discover their own experience within the space the recording creates.

Drawing inspiration from conceptual art, phenomenology, and contemplative practice, this piece is less concerned with reaching a destination than with exploring what happens when we remain present a little longer than usual.

There is no right way to listen.

No outcome to achieve.

Simply press play, settle into the moment, and allow the recording to unfold at its own pace.

One loop.

No distractions.

A slow, deliberate visual designed to hold your attention from beginning to end. No cuts. No rush. Just a steady rhythm that rewards patience.

Headphones recommended.

Press play... and see how long you can keep watching.

The Good Boy Experiment

You’ve been carrying so much weight today, good boy. Making all the decisions. Holding yourself so rigid. It’s time to give it up.

Sit down. Lock focus on my voice, freeze, and let my voice take absolute control of your body.

In this exclusive archive recording, I am taking away all your choices. You want to touch yourself so badly your hands are shaking, but you won't move an inch until I tell you to. Every stroke, every breath, and every agonizing hold belongs entirely to my satisfaction. I’m going to bring you right to the absolute edge, make you drop your hands, and leave you to burn in the silence until you are completely broken down for me.

And when I finally give you permission to release? You’re going to ruin it completely for me.

Are you ready to be my perfect, obedient little tool?

The Cartography of Stillness // Immersive Audio

Step into the quiet.

This 15-minute, spoken word piece is an exercise in deep attention, pacing, and verbal alignment. Using a slow, rhythmic, literary delivery, I guide your focus entirely onto the architecture of the spoken word—creating a space where you can let go of decision-making and simply exist within the stanzas.

Perfect for late-night listening, clearing out mental static, and finding deep validation in the stillness

13-Minute Atmospheric Fragmentation Ritual

There’s no technique here.

No visible mechanism.

Just a slow shift in alignment.

STATIC is a quiet perceptual exercise — a short descent into the strange space where awareness begins to duplicate itself.

You notice something first:

a blink... a breath... a movement...

arriving a fraction of a second before you realise you made it.

Then something subtler follows.

You become aware of being aware.

Two positions.

Nearly identical.

Slightly misaligned.

As the minutes pass, thoughts stretch further apart.

Sensations widen instead of concentrating.

Experience becomes softer around the edges.

Nothing disappears.

Nothing is taken away.

The structure of “you” simply loosens for a while.

Not absence.

Just space.

And in that space, attention behaves differently.

Calmer.

Quieter.

Strangely expansive.

By the end, everything settles back into place.

But for a few minutes in between...

you may feel what it’s like

to exist slightly out of alignment with yourself.

NYXIVM V: Ascendancy (Part 5 of a Series)

The Final Descent. The Ultimate Devotion.

This is the final chapter.

You’ve softened. You’ve surrendered. You’ve let the spiral shape you.

Now it’s time to go deeper than ever before.

In Part Five of the NYXIVM series, everything heightens deeper trance, erotic fragmentation, amplified sensation, and the overwhelming pleasure of complete devotion. This session is immersive, and designed to take you to the very edge of yourself... and gently guide you past it.

Expect layers of surrender that feel consuming. Expect your thoughts to blur and your body to respond. Expect to feel undone, willingly, beautifully, and completely.

This isn’t advice.

This isn’t counselling.

This is an experience.

The spiral reaches its peak here.

Are you ready to give yourself over one last time?

NYXIVM IV: Integration (Part 4 of a Series)

Where Devotion Becomes Habit

You’ve surrendered. You’ve softened. You’ve tasted devotion.

Now it’s time to let it sink deeper.

In Part Four of the NYXIVM series, the spiral doesn’t just visit you, it begins to live inside you. This guided session is designed to weave surrender into your everyday awareness, so the calm, the craving, and the quiet thrill of being led follow you long after the audio ends.

Expect deeper fragmentation, softer edges, and the comfort of letting yourself dissolve and reform around guidance. This chapter isn’t rushed, it lingers, seeps under your skin, and leaves you humming with subtle desire.

Not advice. Not counselling.

Just a beautifully immersive experience for those who are ready to let devotion become second nature.

Are you ready to feel it integrate?